A couple of years ago we took this family trip on a cruse! and we had so much fun!. I am so happy we did do this because i got closer to my family during that week and i also am so happy we went on this trip                          because during that family time i had more time to spend with Elijah!.

As you know in October there was a little girl born and she is my niece she has grown so much since then! and she just has something in her look that when i see her face i just flow out with joy! i cant let her go!.

                                                                   Cow pi. Cutie pi.

                                                                    4 Months Lilah...

                                                                  Happy Lilah!.
Do you understand now?...Chelsea and i have had so many people say we look like twins!... and Lilah looks like Chelsea and I look like her to so... maybe Lilah will be a little ana!... (:

                 This is at Chelsea's wedding! I cried because my big sister was growing up to fast! (:

                                              Lilah and Chelsea where meant to be together!
and god made them be Do you really think we where in heaven before we came to earth I dont know if I should or if i should not Lilah is the mot sweet most smiley little girl I have ever know I wish she could be here now to give me snuggles! and warm baby hugs!.  Her laugh makes me laugh her smile makes me smile to if I could ship her up here with her lovely family I would!... and i'd pay to over night it to!.There is nothing better that knowing there is a baby there to snuggle with!. Having a baby look up at you for the first time is like knowing that baby loves you There is not a thing I would change about Chelsea or Adam or Lilah! they are the best family I know!.  There are so many people who say I am to young to be a aunt! but is there really a age limit? do I have to know how to take care of a baby all alone to be a aunt because I dont think so... In the house hold that i am growing up in we learn young how to change a dipper! and how to hold a baby and that some day this baby will grow to be a big girl like us! and we learn that they cant be dropped!
 and they need to be fed and how to feed them! My mom teaches us this stuff to us when we are little because she wants us to grow up and be teachers to my kids!.
                                       
     

                 

i don't have as much time as my mom does to write in the morning because she gets up at like 5:00 and i don't really want to get up that early just to write a blog post! (; but she does because she writes her blog post and cooks breakfast and does what moms do! and all the time i don't think its that great but when you think about it, it really is! she spends that much time for me and my brother and sisters! when she could be doing other things but she spends that time for me!... this post is not going to be about what i mostly post about its going to be a post for my mom! i like to write down all the things that my mom does for me so i will

                         (1...cooks breakfast)
                          (2...helps me with my room)
                         (3...washes my shirts and pants)
                        (4...folds them!)
                       
                         this could go on forever! but you get the point my mom does the most things i have ever seen any one do! and yet after my dad being diagnosed with cancer and my brother passing away she is still on two feet and doing what moms do! i would have already been off two feet! but yet she writes and talks with us! and does what any mom would do! my mom is very... whats the word? oh right! there is no words to describe her! and maybe some times i don't show it but i really love her and think she is the strongest person i know! she really is my rock! and she helps me get through these hard times we are going through gust like god does to!. i really would not be here with out her! i would not still be living! and i hope that all of you out there let your mom know now that you really do love her!

     family day photos! where the worst my mom would always make us stand there for so long because they would be blurry or some thing like that but now i am so glad we have them! and more memories made! so today might be a short post but i really just want you all to know that if you have to take family day photos just be grateful because i really do!
                                                        LIKE MY MOTHER DOES

                                                   
                                                              GUARDIAN ANGEL

             a year before i was born my grandma passed away and when i was older than a baby my mom would tell me that i did not know her but i would always say i did i'd say i knew her and as i got older my mom would tell me that and she started to think maybe i met her in heaven do we really remember being in heaven well i don't but i do still feel like i did know her!

                                    Elijah Todd Davis was my role model and always be...
  to grow up and be like him and speak the gospel like him i cant think of what the 10 years of my life with him would have been like with out him!. so from this day i will and have to stop thinking of the bad things and start thinking of the good things like the next day i will see him again. things in life will be tough but you have to stick to god and keep trusting him and pray. loosing my brother is so hard it is never easy loosing someone but all but all i have to think about is the next day i see him. and we all look forward to seeing him again and believe that this is not where we belong it is not are home we are not home yet we need to believe times and things like this will never be easy but we have to trust that god has a plan for us. he will help us through the tough times. writing is not easy for me i don't have the best mind for it... my mom does!. so i am writing today because i know all of you out there have lost a loved one or a dear friend but you cant ever get out of your pane without trusting in god!. all of us feel like we are in a nightmare. you might not know it but you art trusting god when you have one you are walking on hard stones when you could be walking on a soft path but when you surrender your life to god you start walking on this soft wonderful path your feet feel soft and light you feel like you could just fly it is because you just lost your burden you have started to grow closer to the cross your life has changed now you will sit on the right hand of god the father almighty and you                                                   will dwell in the house of the lord forever!.
                                                                              SHAKE

             
do you feel it? you just lost like 1,000 pounds off your back maybe you cant feel it but maybe you can but you need to know that if you do this you will have eternal life... my brother had that and now he is sitting on the right hand of god and he will dwell in he house of the lord forever and god said one more home and crossed of Elijahs name and sang a song thats what we all should be doing but we art... some of you might think how are we supposed to do that you do it like you do every day but thanking him for Elijah and praising that he is is home! and i want you all to know god did not make this happen maybe he did not want it to happen like this but he let it happen and i praise the lord every day for that ELIJAH TODD DAVIS is home so we praise the lord!. THANK YOU LORD FOR GIVING ME MY BIG BROTHER!
i miss him more and more everyday so i dont know what to to say... the other day when i was writing i felt the lords hand on my pen... telling me what words to write.  in the summer Elijah had lacrosse games and it was so hot and i did not want to be there but now i am so glad that i got that extra time with him!. i did not want to be there then...but now i am so happy i did go!. i love and miss him so much! i just wish every day that god would come home now just now lord come home!. when i was little i did not want him to come home yet i wanted to grow up! and have kids and be a mom! but now things have changed i want him now!
                                                                     CHANGED!

               i came up out of the water raised my hands up to the father gave it all to him that day!
                  what do you think of your life when you close your eyes and just think?
                           right now just close your eyes and think of your life!

     life is so hard for all of us but does god ever leave us in the dust and say your hopeless why should i help      you... no he never does that he comes and picks us up and holds us and never lets go but we still just do just what he tells us NOT to do and yet he still loves us!... and sometimes i just want to sit down and say           (god why? why do you still love me even after what i do why?)
          (this song has helped me go through a lot of things lately, it helps me think
                when something like this happens i know that i still need to know that he has a plan for me)
     

                 
                           this is very hard and some of you who read this and knew Elijah you will know
                          how much he loved the lord and wanted to go to heaven so some of you might have                                      already seen this but some of you might not have seen it so i want to show you this today
                                                   this is Elijah's senor testimony...

         just watch it again and listen to how much he says he longs for heaven how much he wants to be there
         and now he is... sometimes i close my eyes and try to think what heaven but what i think about is so wonderful! but do you think that heaven will be way better than we can ever think of?... well thats how Elijah                                                             says it in here...

 maybe i dont remember this one but i know even then he was the best brother ever and i would never ask                                                      god for a different brother...

 and maybe i was not alive then but i still know that he was the sweetest little boy ever and i love him and                                                                    always will...
                              the time i had with him was the best 10 years of my life
                             and yes maybe every day i wish he was he was here but i also
                 know that god has a plan for all of us and i do not like this plan right now but maybe
             when god is finished with this path he has us on maybe i will love his plan but why does god have
                plans that start out like this... how does he say they will be good even when he took my brother?
            i wanted him forever till its my time GOD WHY DID YOU TAKE HIM?  i want him back! how is this a good plan?... i say that every day and all around me i hear people saying my god spoke to me
                   but i cant ever hear him am i to loud to hear him? do i just need to be a better person to hear him?... looking up at the sky every day i pray and say god please help me to hear you and understand why                                          you took such a loving person away
                        why do you do this to us but even then i still cant hear him
                but do you think i am doing wrong to talk to him like that? sometimes
       i do, but also i think does he just not want to talk to me? because i have disobeyed him two many times?            then i say, no he says in the bible he will never go for a rest and not listen to me,
                                 he will answer me when i talk to him
                        but then i go right back to thinking why cant i hear him?
                  and i wish with all my heart that i was there with Elijah and maybe then i could hear god
                                but will he want to see me? i always say that in my head over and over
                         again even when i know he loves me and will always look forward to the day
                                    when he plans to come and get us and he loves you to!
                  so this song is from frozen and maybe you have seen it but even this song helps me

                                         
                                      i love this song it helps me to only some songs help me
                       and the songs that do help me so much all i do is think of how much god loves me!

                             
                                     JESUS LOVES ME! AND YOU! FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO!
                                   
                                     http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQwle9B-r44
                                                     please watch this to!

do you ever feel like your life is one long latter leading down or up and each time you sin you go back down a step and when you take a new step in your faith you will get closer to god and become so much more like him. and when you go down a step you feel so far away you don't feel safe because you just got farther away from him.

some times when i am listening to kay.love they play some of the most powerful songs i have ever heard and i stop and listen and think what will it be like when i go to heaven. i just cant think that god gave his one and only son for me for you we all have so much sin and sorrow what do we do with it? well when we get to heaven we loose it all because of jesus he took the blame for what we did. some times i have to take the blame for something i did not do and i hate it! but thats just for 4 people but jesus took it all! all the people in the world he took the blame and i...i hate taking the blame for just one person but no jesus doesn't even say i hate you or any thing all he said was father forgive them for what they've done.. not even a word to them. just think if that was you what would to have done? i would have yelled at them!.but yet nothing from jesus not a word to them but only to god even when they are killing him he still praises god! its all of us who really killed him if you think right now that you killed god what would you say?. the one that still loves us even after we killed him he still loves us! his love for us is the strongest love of all!.    

              i have not written in a long time but i finally sat down and started to write.
            some times even writers cant think of things to write and i have that problem now
                                           i cant think of what to right...
                                      so i will right about the snow storm...
                   god gave us snow for what reason? did he not make it and it just come by its self?
              i personally do  not like the winter! but do we have to be grateful for it even when we dont want to?
     just because god made it? sometimes you will come up to some people and they will say i am grateful for the winter and the snow but when you see them when they dont know your there does it look like there grateful? sometimes they say that just because they think god said be grateful for all i have made but your not going to go up to them and say are you saying that just because god says to be grateful but maybe your all like they dont really like this... but some times you need to stop and think am i really grateful for gods creation or am i just faking just like some people? just to get god to think im good but he knows if your not really grateful he knows that i like summer a lot better than winter but is that a sin to like one thing he created more than another? snow can ruin a lot of things... A LOT OF THINGS... but maybe he has a reason of all of the snow like i am trusting that he has a plan for me for my family he has a reason for taking my big brother AND I WANT HIM BACK! I MISS HIM! WHY CANT I HAVE HIM? why did god tack him? i ask myself that every day and cry a little each time i think about him and i love him and want him back!    

here is a song that means a lot to me and i hope it will to you to...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l3CEMWCxSk copy and paste this in your search bar... and the rest of the songs...
it helps me get through a lot of hard things even church is hard for me my life has changed a lot in the past months but we still need to trust... TRUST i will say this a lot but it helps trust in god.. trust he has a plan for you i love this verse... be patience god is not finished with me yet. even thou some times i want him to be so i can go home and see Elijah again soon but then i remember be patience god is not finished with me yet he has a plan and he will never forget that plan he has one for you to we dont know what that plan is but he does and he has your name written on his hands he took the punishment for your sins.. not his because he had no sins to pay the price for..

       this is from my sisters wedding last year in October and now they have a beautiful child who i love with all my being.. yes you could say we are one big happy family but we cant ever stitch up the hole that has been made it has been made and will never close till we all are in heaven with Elijah again. that hole is one big hole that was for Elijah him self and nothing on earth can take the place in that hole in are family but he is still in are family and still watching over all of us today and right now.
Elijah had a different perspective of that he said god says there is no crying in heaven but if people in heaven could see us they would cry because of sad things that happen here on earth. i dont know about that but that was his perspective of it and it matters very much and he knows now id he was right or not. but here is one more song and i came to know this song by singing it in my first concert at the middle school and it also means a lot to me and my family!
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lPOM0IUsd_0
there is a song with the lyrics
                                            im coming home
                                            im coming home
                                  tell the world im coming home
                                      let the rain wash away
                                  and all the pain of yesterday
                          i know my kingdom awaits and there forgiving
                                           my mistakes
               im coming home im coming home tell the world im coming. . . home....

Recently I lost my older brother to a car accident and since then my life has been very hard to do a lot of the things I do... and I wish I could be happy but I just can't I wish he could still be here to enjoy the wonderfull moments with my new born niece but I know he is here with every moment of my life. Some of my very good friends haven't stoped reminding me that I have lost my brother but I gained a gardening angle and I know he is with me now even when I can't see him. So if you have lost a very deer one some time you will know the hurt the pane and the grieving because I know that I am not the only one out there that has lost a loved one. But even if you have not lost a loved one and you are grieving something else you still need to trust, trust is my hope word trust in the Lord that he has a plan for your life trust him that one day when your strength is failing and the end draws close he will have a plan for you and I don't know if you will be speechless or if you will sing his praises unending but I do know that if you trust him with all you heart and ask him to come in to your heart and be clean I know you will have eternal life in him.