A couple of years ago we took this family trip on a cruse! and we had so much fun!. I am so happy we did do this because i got closer to my family during that week and i also am so happy we went on this trip because during that family time i had more time to spend with Elijah!.
As you know in October there was a little girl born and she is my niece she has grown so much since then! and she just has something in her look that when i see her face i just flow out with joy! i cant let her go!.
Cow pi. Cutie pi.
4 Months Lilah...
Happy Lilah!. Do you understand now?...Chelsea and i have had so many people say we look like twins!... and Lilah looks like Chelsea and I look like her to so... maybe Lilah will be a little ana!... (:
This is at Chelsea's wedding! I cried because my big sister was growing up to fast! (:
Lilah and Chelsea where meant to be together!
and god made them be Do you really think we where in heaven before we came to earth I dont know if I should or if i should not Lilah is the mot sweet most smiley little girl I have ever know I wish she could be here now to give me snuggles! and warm baby hugs!. Her laugh makes me laugh her smile makes me smile to if I could ship her up here with her lovely family I would!... and i'd pay to over night it to!.There is nothing better that knowing there is a baby there to snuggle with!. Having a baby look up at you for the first time is like knowing that baby loves you There is not a thing I would change about Chelsea or Adam or Lilah! they are the best family I know!. There are so many people who say I am to young to be a aunt! but is there really a age limit? do I have to know how to take care of a baby all alone to be a aunt because I dont think so... In the house hold that i am growing up in we learn young how to change a dipper! and how to hold a baby and that some day this baby will grow to be a big girl like us! and we learn that they cant be dropped!
and they need to be fed and how to feed them! My mom teaches us this stuff to us when we are little because she wants us to grow up and be teachers to my kids!.
Friday, March 14, 2014
i don't have as much time as my mom does to write in the morning because she gets up at like 5:00 and i don't really want to get up that early just to write a blog post! (; but she does because she writes her blog post and cooks breakfast and does what moms do! and all the time i don't think its that great but when you think about it, it really is! she spends that much time for me and my brother and sisters! when she could be doing other things but she spends that time for me!... this post is not going to be about what i mostly post about its going to be a post for my mom! i like to write down all the things that my mom does for me so i will
(1...cooks breakfast)
(2...helps me with my room)
(3...washes my shirts and pants)
(4...folds them!)
this could go on forever! but you get the point my mom does the most things i have ever seen any one do! and yet after my dad being diagnosed with cancer and my brother passing away she is still on two feet and doing what moms do! i would have already been off two feet! but yet she writes and talks with us! and does what any mom would do! my mom is very... whats the word? oh right! there is no words to describe her! and maybe some times i don't show it but i really love her and think she is the strongest person i know! she really is my rock! and she helps me get through these hard times we are going through gust like god does to!. i really would not be here with out her! i would not still be living! and i hope that all of you out there let your mom know now that you really do love her!
family day photos! where the worst my mom would always make us stand there for so long because they would be blurry or some thing like that but now i am so glad we have them! and more memories made! so today might be a short post but i really just want you all to know that if you have to take family day photos just be grateful because i really do!
LIKE MY MOTHER DOES
GUARDIAN ANGEL
a year before i was born my grandma passed away and when i was older than a baby my mom would tell me that i did not know her but i would always say i did i'd say i knew her and as i got older my mom would tell me that and she started to think maybe i met her in heaven do we really remember being in heaven well i don't but i do still feel like i did know her!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Elijah Todd Davis was my role model and always be...
to grow up and be like him and speak the gospel like him i cant think of what the 10 years of my life with him would have been like with out him!. so from this day i will and have to stop thinking of the bad things and start thinking of the good things like the next day i will see him again. things in life will be tough but you have to stick to god and keep trusting him and pray. loosing my brother is so hard it is never easy loosing someone but all but all i have to think about is the next day i see him. and we all look forward to seeing him again and believe that this is not where we belong it is not are home we are not home yet we need to believe times and things like this will never be easy but we have to trust that god has a plan for us. he will help us through the tough times. writing is not easy for me i don't have the best mind for it... my mom does!. so i am writing today because i know all of you out there have lost a loved one or a dear friend but you cant ever get out of your pane without trusting in god!. all of us feel like we are in a nightmare. you might not know it but you art trusting god when you have one you are walking on hard stones when you could be walking on a soft path but when you surrender your life to god you start walking on this soft wonderful path your feet feel soft and light you feel like you could just fly it is because you just lost your burden you have started to grow closer to the cross your life has changed now you will sit on the right hand of god the father almighty and you will dwell in the house of the lord forever!.
SHAKE
do you feel it? you just lost like 1,000 pounds off your back maybe you cant feel it but maybe you can but you need to know that if you do this you will have eternal life... my brother had that and now he is sitting on the right hand of god and he will dwell in he house of the lord forever and god said one more home and crossed of Elijahs name and sang a song thats what we all should be doing but we art... some of you might think how are we supposed to do that you do it like you do every day but thanking him for Elijah and praising that he is is home! and i want you all to know god did not make this happen maybe he did not want it to happen like this but he let it happen and i praise the lord every day for that ELIJAH TODD DAVIS is home so we praise the lord!. THANK YOU LORD FOR GIVING ME MY BIG BROTHER!
i miss him more and more everyday so i dont know what to to say... the other day when i was writing i felt the lords hand on my pen... telling me what words to write. in the summer Elijah had lacrosse games and it was so hot and i did not want to be there but now i am so glad that i got that extra time with him!. i did not want to be there then...but now i am so happy i did go!. i love and miss him so much! i just wish every day that god would come home now just now lord come home!. when i was little i did not want him to come home yet i wanted to grow up! and have kids and be a mom! but now things have changed i want him now!
CHANGED!
i came up out of the water raised my hands up to the father gave it all to him that day!
what do you think of your life when you close your eyes and just think?
right now just close your eyes and think of your life!
Thursday, March 6, 2014
life is so hard for all of us but does god ever leave us in the dust and say your hopeless why should i help you... no he never does that he comes and picks us up and holds us and never lets go but we still just do just what he tells us NOT to do and yet he still loves us!... and sometimes i just want to sit down and say (god why? why do you still love me even after what i do why?)
(this song has helped me go through a lot of things lately, it helps me think
when something like this happens i know that i still need to know that he has a plan for me)
this is very hard and some of you who read this and knew Elijah you will know
how much he loved the lord and wanted to go to heaven so some of you might have already seen this but some of you might not have seen it so i want to show you this today
this is Elijah's senor testimony...
just watch it again and listen to how much he says he longs for heaven how much he wants to be there
and now he is... sometimes i close my eyes and try to think what heaven but what i think about is so wonderful! but do you think that heaven will be way better than we can ever think of?... well thats how Elijah says it in here...
maybe i dont remember this one but i know even then he was the best brother ever and i would never ask god for a different brother...
and maybe i was not alive then but i still know that he was the sweetest little boy ever and i love him and always will...
the time i had with him was the best 10 years of my life
and yes maybe every day i wish he was he was here but i also
know that god has a plan for all of us and i do not like this plan right now but maybe
when god is finished with this path he has us on maybe i will love his plan but why does god have
plans that start out like this... how does he say they will be good even when he took my brother?
i wanted him forever till its my time GOD WHY DID YOU TAKE HIM? i want him back! how is this a good plan?... i say that every day and all around me i hear people saying my god spoke to me
but i cant ever hear him am i to loud to hear him? do i just need to be a better person to hear him?... looking up at the sky every day i pray and say god please help me to hear you and understand why you took such a loving person away
why do you do this to us but even then i still cant hear him
but do you think i am doing wrong to talk to him like that? sometimes
i do, but also i think does he just not want to talk to me? because i have disobeyed him two many times? then i say, no he says in the bible he will never go for a rest and not listen to me,
he will answer me when i talk to him
but then i go right back to thinking why cant i hear him?
and i wish with all my heart that i was there with Elijah and maybe then i could hear god
but will he want to see me? i always say that in my head over and over
again even when i know he loves me and will always look forward to the day
when he plans to come and get us and he loves you to!
so this song is from frozen and maybe you have seen it but even this song helps me
i love this song it helps me to only some songs help me
and the songs that do help me so much all i do is think of how much god loves me!
JESUS LOVES ME! AND YOU! FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO!
